1.21.2011
I'd lost sight of the truth of totally, 100% resting in God's love. But I also had never understood exchanging my own life so that Christ may live His life of love through me. I didn't know how to understand certain things in my life, and forgive the cause of those things, whether they were perceived or overt. But now, now God has said, "It is time that I merge the two. And now, NOW you can know what freedom really means!" Am I perfect? NOPE. but that's the best part of it. He knows i never will be. therefore, i don't have to be.
it's not about what is right and wrong. it's about a deep, intimate relationship founded in the most supernatural love that we'll only ever know in Christ. we're just simply unable to reach that vastness of love on earth.
so here i am. "I completely surrender my life to You because I accept Your love. Your law is love. Your life is love. Your testimony is love. And I choose to exchange my life for yours so that my law, my life, my testimony is love. And only that matters. I know that You will put everything else into place. It's about You and me now."
I'll be leaving Monday. I'm hoping to figure out a place between here and Sevierville that I can stop for the night, and then finish the trip Tuesday morning. I don't like driving at night. But most people I know are really close to here, or they are really close to Sevierville, which kinda defeats the purpose. I'd like to drive 7 - 8 hours on Monday, and then finish the trip on Tuesday. We'll see how God works it out. : )
I had an amazing 4 hours with God today, at one of my favorite, little coffee shops in town.
I don't really know what I'm doing for the rest of the day. I like that.
